The last several days I’ve been reflecting on a lot of things.

I’ve reconnected with a couple old friends and spent some time hanging out with others. I knew I was missing those connections, but didn’t realize how close they always were. It was a really comforting surprise.

This past weekend was great – my daughter got some fantastic news about college, more time spent with friends, and I went back to church. I have missed that too.

Here’s the kicker. Last week I learned about something my husband has been doing. I’m sure he thinks he’s being helpful, but in fact it’s heartbreaking. Our daughter has regularly expressed how upsetting it is that her grandparents seem to ignore her, especially compared to her cousins. She’s not wrong. Turns out her dad has been keeping them away on purpose. As he spoke I could see her heart crumbling. What do you even do with that???

It’s been more than a week now and I’m still so angry with him. Not just about what he did, but he refuses to even try to understand what he’s done.

My biggest point of reflection had been, “Am I doing the right thing?” The good and bad points recently have confirmed – I’m definitely not! My head is now spinning with all kinds of questions. How long has it been like this? How did I let this happen? What will be the impact for my daughter over the rest of her life?

Above all, the most significant question I’m facing is, “What’s the right thing to do now?” And I don’t know the answer yet…